This morning I decided to give this new thing a try.
Meditated in my Sacred heart.
To those who are wondering where is the Sacred heart, it is above the heart chakra.
I closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths.
Then I brought my awareness to the space above my heart chakra.
I made the intention to stay in that space for as long as I can.
However, I was surprised when I started to feel extremely uncomfortable.
My chest tightens, I felt needle pain around my chest and my throat closing up.
The first thought that I had was to abandon my meditation. I was very tempted to do so.
Then I remembered someone mentioned that when we feel a dislike or uncomfortable with something, it’s telling us that there is work that we need to do within ourselves.
Part of me was curious and wanting to know what inner work that I needed to do.
With that, I persuaded myself to just allow myself to be in the space.
The uncomfortableness got intense.
I kept myself focus.
I felt the pain, but I didn’t allow myself to get carried away by them.
After 5 minutes, the pain eased off.
Something beautiful came through after that.
I felt this soft, loving energy that flowed from my left temple to my right leg.
That soft, loving energy was a gift.
It was a reward for my willingness to go through the somewhat uncomfortable process.
Thank you God, for the lovely and unexpected gift.
Now, I am aware that I don’t consistently “live” in my heart.
Usually, my thoughts, actions, and words are from my brain. I can say hurtful things to people without having the awareness that my words can hurt until it’s too late and the damage has been done.
For me to “live” from my heart takes a lot of conscious effort.
The intense pain that I felt during the meditation revealed how uncomfortable I was being in my heart.
I am guessing that being in my heart is the next lesson that I need to master.